Never Say Never

Many times we use many idiom expressions just because they sound right at that point of the conversation or to make you sound worldly or simply "cool". However, it seems a lot of these idioms have depth. For instance, “never say never”. As a kid I remember using it just because it sounded so different n cool and it sounded like I’m abreast of the English lingo. But what I never realized was that it’s SO true in real life. Especially in mine.

When I was younger I always thought I would never measure up to go aboard, but I did.

When I was studying I never thought I would every complete with a passing grade. I did, and some more. That actually opened up a lot opportunities for self-discovery. You have no idea!

When I saw my aunt passed away, v young, because of how she was un-healthy and over-weight and I thought to myself “THAT would never be me”. Today I am. Unhealthy AND over-weight.

When I moved out of Minneapolis I was certain I left for good. And when I was in that “looking-for-a-job” part of my life Minneapolis pulled me right back.

The world never thought that the U.S.A could have black President OR a President who is a woman. In 2009 we saw both candidates who were black AND a woman run for President. And Obama won.

So the next time you say “even if you/it were the last....” watch out cuz if just might happen ;)

Girls night out

There is a show on the radio called the Delilah show that comes on every evening 6 days a week (or maybe 7). On the soft rock channel, round the country. She calls herself the Queen of Sappy songs. Anywho, every Friday is dedicated to "girls-night-out". All these women hangin out together and calling in to talk about their "friendship".

As I listened I begin to wonder... I remembered the song by Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free ..."because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young" . I sometimes wish I had one close girl friend who just got me. I used to .. no strach that she still is my friend but we've grown apart. No this is not a blame game... it's never really one person's fault. Just like an action is always provoked because of a re-action. As I experience each day as a day older, I wish I could share it with a girlfirled. Someone who'd get what em syaing. In my younger dsys I just wanted guy friends... never wanted a girl friend because they are so stuck up!

Just like thay say you have to be lucky to find "love", similarly I believe you have to be lucky to find the person you can bond with. Who else will understand you when you try to xplain to someone who doesn't get you jsut how hard it is to fit into anything in your closet. Why it's so good to just go crazy sometimes & have tantrums. SOmeone who get's why we want to have the house spick & span and to decorate it... At workplace you have to strive extra hard to prove yourself, especially working with your native people & she would say "ur telling me".

Someone I can share things I have bottled up inside me and would LOVE to jsut get it out. She would just hug me and let me ...let it all out.. cuz she "understands"... the depth, the concequnces, the reason for me being me. Today. Because of it.

50 First Dates

There are a bunch of hot chicks returned from Hawaii who can't stop talking about this amazing guy - Adam Sandler. No.. this is not a synopsis of the movie. Yes I did watch it today and had a dejea vu. The first time I watched the move was in college. I was also cooking green beans for dinner which I had cooked since the college days. The this movie starts to play and I started to think, I used to pride myself with having a good memory. But if you really think I don't reallly remember a whole lot. So the movie really inspired me to start writing from the beginning of year so I can go back and say oh yeah... it was this year?

Yes I won't probably write every day I want to try to as much as I can...

So the year strated with the biggest hangover of the year ;). Yes yes, ths is assuming I'm not gonna be drinking as much this year. So far work has been good.. kept me really busy and I like what em doing..unlike last year.. working with one of the most annoying, even-my-enemy-shouldn't work-with, person ! *touch wood* I was able to help identify some design questions that made the client take a double look @ their requirements. Will it reach my manager for a goood year end review? Hell NO!!

Today I suggested a requirement to the cilent and they were SO excitied about it. I was SO not expecting it I just did respong appoperiately :-o.

SOI have put on 3 more pounds. Still can't fit into any of my clothes. I have a closet full of them. It's very depressing :( I'm afraid I will never go back to being a healthy weight. I am today 45 pounds over weight. I've got a LOT of grey hair, makes me look like em 40. Extremely strssed.Not enough sleep since God knows when. My acidity drives me to fall off a cliff and just pass on !

Green Hornet is releasing tomorrow. It snowed like crazy this past Monday and ice rain in the evening so I was sitting & working from home for 2.5 days. It is freezing outside.

Natural disater in Australia & Brazil. Record high snow in the U.S.

old age calling..

Age – such a scary, yet, an inevitable subject. You KNOW your growing old when:
1. You know Santa C doesn’t exist  & have to pay for your own things.
2. You don’t look the same. Trust me it’s a CON.
3. Afraid of roller coasters
4. You can’t party for 3 consecutive nights anymore!
5. Marriage drama.
6. Get married.
7. Older men start hitting on you. I mean REALLY old men.
8. You can’t clean your house without having a back pain for the next 2 days!
9. You have to take a nap before partying in the nights.
10. You’re being referred to as ma’am or aunty.
11. You’ve driven 30 miles and don’t remember how you got there (you’re so busy thinking of something else)
12. You need a drink to be in a happy mood
13. You gain more weight when you work on trying to lose it!
14. You can never find ONE cute guy (then again, I don’t think you find them anyway irrespective of age!)
15. you ask friends ‘where did you drink’ instead of ‘what did you do over the weekend?’
16. loud music in cars becomes noise
17. you make plans “around” your work
18. sex is not an adventure anymore!
19. Breakfasts include fruits and ‘greens’! eeeiew
20. whiskey replaces beer
21. cigars replace ciggies
22. formal wear is not ‘dressing up’
23. you ‘greet’ the girl and not ‘hoot’
24. you ask her out for brunch instead of a late nighter
25. u can hardly bend down to tie ur shoe laces…or even pick a thing up..
26. you regret the “xXx” tattoo on your neck.
27. you openly admit “forgive my stupidity, but what does this mean?”
28. a kid answers back, and leaves you speechless
29. you can discuss global economy better than your hobbies
30. you have to buy granny panties
31. Men – when you need to wear glasses to see em “thongs”
32. You go to work/worship center on your birthday vs. partying wildly with your friends. Your birthday is just another day
33. When you forget your partners birthday, but not your boss’s
34. you are not drink, you cannot spell drunk.
35. You have to stick this list on your fridge, so you can remember what those points of growing old were!

Fly way from here..

This I hate about flying - Yes apart from the crazy turbulences that make you wish you’d actually asked that guy/gurl “wanna go for dinner”? or “gone driving instead of flying” you face when you fly, there are other crazy things I simply want to put-a-sock-in-their-mount hate about flying.

1. In this digital world we ALL own a cell phone. Get over it! Don’t scream into ur cell phone and talk like you’re the only one who owns one. I am sure 99% of them probably call the people they wouldn’t ever call otherwise and just scream into their phones. And loudly enough to force us to be the audience.

2. I love you *vomits *. Please I know all about freedom of speech, but limit the use of the term “I love you” in your calls. Shouldn’t the fact that you’re calling them enough to know you “love” them. I think it’s like the travelers get an extra pump of “I love you” in their coffee before they arrive. As soon as they hit the airports like a disease they pick up their phone and scream: “I love you”.

3. Please leave your kids home. Seriously! They cry, they kick the seats in front of them, they TALK ALL THE TIME.

4. Everybody is always in a hurry in the airport or when they are flying. For instance, when you’re in the line for “security check”. First of all it’s a pain that you have to put every firgging item out there for them to search – your bags, take our your toiletries, your laptop, your shoes, shoes, jackets, bangles, ear-rings (eerr.. if they’re metal & 99% of the time they ARE)..... you get the drift . As if I need the guy behind me trying to hurry me. In the middle of all that I’m supposed to dig for my ID and then try to put it back so I donn lose it.

5. Why is the water $3.50 + tax? Didn’t I already pay $500 to fly?

6. In the airplane the moment the flight touches down – people are throwing open their seat belts and getting up to get their bag. No, em not asking them to sit and “chakki pise”, but calm down it’s not the end of the world.

He * loves * me.. he * loves * me not

Just as when I watched Twlight, even as I am reading the book - I am still SO in awe with it, all over again. I mean it's a regualr love story and like most books and/or movies good comes over evil and the love birds live happily ever after (ofcourse unless they have sequels and then it takes that many sequels before thay can walk away into the sun set to live happily ever after. So knowing the outcome how come we (including me), still crave to watch/read them still.

Then I got to thinking. In this cynical world where I know Santa doesn't exist & nethier does the tooth fairy nor does "love" why am I still reading the book? And then I realized it's "thoda hatke" kind of a story. Not your regular boy-meets-girl story. But it just is. No matter how much I/we might want to avoid it we are all suckers when it comes to "emotions". And this book captures that innocent love. It's butterflies in your stomach good. Every time Bella is holding her breath, I realize em holding my breath too. It takes me back to school when I'd have a HUGE crush on a guy and it would be such a BIG thing when he wuld even LOOK @ me. Breaking into a sweat just when he smiles at me or trying to combact those somersaults in my stomach when I'm talking to him!! haha .. good ol days. I think that's what's gotten all the audience attracted to this like a moth to the flame. Even if it's only the female readers :)

* honk honk *

Sometimes when em drving ont he road, I wish I was given the authority to stop people and give them a ticket for the way they drive. Who's to say, when people see me drive they must want to do the same thing. But this excerise is not to find fault with me, it's to point fingres @ the other who-the-hell-let-you-on-the-road drivers.

1. When you are drving a car, your doing exactly that driving a car. The first rule of drving on the road is to %$%^&^% keep your eyes on the road. Why? Hel - lo, because your driving on the road? If you want to have a round table confrence with your partner in the passanger seat, here's an idea: why don't you park your car in a parking lot? find a round table. sit. have a conversation. DO NOT DO IT ON THE ROAD.

2. the second rule when you drive is to sneak quick peaks @ the review mirrors and your side mirrors. If you see someone pretty close behind you, DO NOT BLOODY CHANGE LANES. If you do I will break really hard. And yes not HIT you from behind. BUT IF I HAVE A MORON BEHIND ME, LIKE YOU HE WILL NOT BRAKE ON TIME AND HE WILL HIT ME!!!

3. If you are drving slow on the left lane, as the rule on the road sign says, slow cars move to the right lane - it's for you to follow it - it's not there for show-case.

4. how the hell can you not KNOW your indicator is on when it's no longer required?

5. I am all for not putting on ur indicator if you're on the left lane. Becase atleast I am smart enough to know being on the left lane you WILL trun left. But if em right behind you, have the decency to give me 50 yrd notice your turing Right or Left by using your indicator. Don't just suddenly brake and trun! (refer to point 2)

6. why don't we have the right to honk!!!

7. why can't we have a message board that would pop up with the push of a button that would read to the other driver " You Moron, who gave you a drving license?".